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well, i havent been to school for 2 days straight.


ever since saturday, things have been deteriorating right in my hands, fine. im not letting anything affect me too badly..
but of course if this shit continues i think i'll have myself a little melt down, barricade myself in my half clean half beat up room & scream for the next 18 years of my life.
i went to work today, ready to make some gas money for school, so i can actually go ya know? i got a classy church crowd w/a fat ass preacher. i mean, he was pouring off of the chair. c'mon. one of the 7 deadly sins is gluttony sir &he orded country fried steak, hash browns, 3 pancakes [which he bitched for until he got them], &3 fucking eggs...so when he started to preach to me i bit my cheek so hard i think ill need stitches asap. he was like 'you saved girl?'
i love him. 


church crowds are notoriously bad tippers, so when a crowd of 15 came in...i expected about 5 dollars off them, i always want to say 'wow, i hope your tithes aren't this skimpy..' but they gave me 16. almost a dollar a piece from them [there was more, but i'll explain what happened], i was in awe. as they were leaving i shouted 'God bless'...&that preacher gave me the oddest look & asked where i went to church. i told him the refuge..he wrinkled his nose & handed me his church's thing. &told me id find salvation there. i ripped it up right infront of him & told him that when my healthy fasting preacher comes in to eat he is very nice, understanding, & attentive. thats when he hobbled right over & grabbed his 2 dollar tip off of the table. 
i smiled, 'dont bite the hand that feeds you, unless of course, you get that hungry.'


gotta love people, right? i was actually pretty relieved..i didnt need his greasy money..or to go to a church where the preacher preaches w/a drum stick hanging out of his mouth. seriously.




thats my work story, i should make a whole serperate blog for these but i dont want to take it too far. my goal is to quit having things to talk about that are work-related..stop losing my temper at work, & just smile like i've got a dick in my hand.




that was unnecessary.