i'm so bad

i'm laughing my ass off at all the guys that thought they had a chance w/me tonight.

&i'm bad..i sat there & smiled & flirted [tried].
i know i'm bad, because i led them on & gave them wrong numbers.

but seriously, they're all bad because they probably didnt want hugs & kisses to stop with hugs & kisses.
plus, they were all either friends or related..whatd they want a train?


cassie has a made a monster outta me.
its all very flattering, even when the dudes are uglier than my butt & have the same spirituality as porn.
why is that? i mean..dont get me wrong it simultaneously disgusting & vialtile..but why is flattery so satisfying?

i, personally...always question the motives behind flattery. probably because ive spent the worser part of my life using flattery to get out of trouble..or to get into trouble. so naturally...when someone is obviously trying to flatter me...i want to know why. its pretty easy to figure out though.
BODY LANGUAGE. if you know about body language, you know everything you need to know about flattery.
tonight, when these young men were talking to me. their body language shouted 'hoornnnyyy'. but did mine?
its very easy to shoot someone down with body language, i couldve easily done that. but i'm a vulture of curiosity. so of course, i faked my body language & figured if i continued to fake it..that wouldnt be the only thing i'd be faking that night. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...ROASTED.
it was interesting, i think i have a taste of what all the flirty pretty girls feel like.
i dont care for the feeling. its objectifying & weird. i wanted to punch them all in the head after it was said & done.

i'm not 16 anymore, i guess  its time for something different.