listen up yawl

i have a new playlist. its in the same place as the other one 'gypsie meets warrior'..i probably shouldnt have told you..b/c now all you'll do is scroll down the page b/c it's overlapping with the music youre probably playing right now. thats what i also do.

anyhow, this one is called 'liquid'..i think i made it back in janurary..its not full so obviously i'm still adding songs.

i haven't had a blog entry in a while now because i'm in mourning. my precious beautiful fool dog passed away on Saturday the 27th of Feburary, of old age. my sister found him at the top of the stairs..in 'his spot'. my dad came & told me while i was at work so i could go say goodbye to my baby brother.

i was hysterical. i was loud, wailing, crying so hard the ground shook..&i was escorted out by my detention officer of a dad & an off duty [sexy] cop.
i'll tell you about why this cop is sexy later.
but yes, it was/is very rough for me & i miss him even typing this. he was my diamond! if i was lonely, he knew...he'd come up all slowly to cuddle up with me.
when i was sad he knew too.
&he definitly knew when i was angry, &like everyone else..would take off like the wind.
i've had him for more than 11years.
this is him:

btw, he's just sleeping in that one picture of him on the floor. im not sick. i get all choaked up & cry when i think about him. he was always with me here, he followed me around. he'd whine at my door, go outside with me. im not sure people understand, he was true.


&my love for him, was why this cop was so sexy to me. i was understandably emotional & vounerable..&this guy at work was giving me a hard time. he is not my manager, but pretends to be. he said some mean things me to in regards to my dog. so i jumped on him..infront of this cop [not caring about prison to potential charges] &started to beat him up. [&i warned this kid, so it was fair. i'm not scared to beat the shit out someone. fighting isn't about giving, its about taking & i can take it.]
of course, the cop runs over[he had been watching cautiously after hearing the raised voices] & starts pulling me off, finally succeeding after about 5 minutes. he picked me up & held me in the air..as i struggled to get back to this FUCK CLIT of a dude. still holding me in the air, he yells over to this worm & tells him 'YOU NEED TO CALM THE HELL DOWN'. he sets me down on the ground & asks me if im okay. i felt like a little girl who dropped her ice cream cone & lives in a broken down trailer.

i was stupefied. i have never had anyone [1] stop me from kicking someones ass, [2] act like i'm the victim when i kick someones ass, or [3] throw me over their shoulder like i'm not 5'8 & don't weigh 137.4 pounds.
but i oddly was fascinated by this.&the fact that he was turned on by the fact that i went through all 4 seasons right in front of him. first...i was chipper-cheerful-free-for-all talking to him for like 2 hours...then i was devastated & hysterical while he was escorting me out of the restaurant [&struggling to do so]..then i was dormant & depressing...then i was furious & dangerous.

if i saw someone like that, i'd keep my distance. yet he followed me around all night..talking my head off.
i need more friends like that.  because i'm greedy, i want more than what i got. :]


-wild amazon

p.s. R.I.P Pinn...i love you baby boy!